She was just a small girl and everyone thought she was cute because
she looked young for her age. To get home from school she would walk
through the nearby high school with her family. This brought her into
contact with people who she didn't know very well and who also
thought she was cute. There was one older girl in particular that
thought she was very cute and wanted to spend time with her. Her
mother was always asked if she could be picked up and cuddled, but
the little girl was never asked if this was ok with her. Sometimes
the little girl would tell the older girl that she didn't like her
which make the older girl tell the little girls mother, who then told
the little girl off. As the little girl got older she thought about
this situation some more, and realised that the reason that it had
made her so uncomfortable was that she was not asked and it had made
her feel like she had no control over what was happenining to her.
Also because she was so small when she was picked up the ground was a
long way from her feet and she didn't like that feeling because it
made her feel more like she had no control. She had wanted to tell
them how she felt at the time but had been too scared to say and by
telling the older girl that she didn't like her was trying to let
them know how that she felt she didn't have control. Sometimes as an
adult she still feels like everyone else is making decisions for her
and that she still has now control over her life.
