Monday, 1 January 2018

Why am I here?

I have been wondering lately what my purpose in life is? I feel like up to this point I have not really achieved much with my life. 
I am towards the middle of my thirties and I have never had a boyfriend, I do not feel that this is the most important thing to have achieved but I feel that quite a few other people judge me about this, because to them this is the most important thing. I know that a lot of people do not think like that but I get a lot of societal messages that the most important thing is to find a life partner and to settle down with them.
I personally believe that this is not the most important thing and that you can be perfectly happy in yourself without someone to partner with. It is more important to have people in your life who are honest with you and will support you know matter what. You also need to be happy within yourself and not let others tell you how you should be (I know that is a bit of a weird thing to say considering that I was saying that I worry about what other people think but I am personally working on not worrying so much about what other people think).
I have also been wondering about about my purpose lately because once again I find myself in a position where I a currently between jobs. I new that this was happening but there was a possibility that my previous job was going to be extended, but that did not eventuate. I feel tht I have found my calling but due to the fact that I do not seem to be able to find a job that lasts longer than a year it has got me wondering again. I know that I am just letting my worries rule my head and that I should just trust God but I am finding that difficult because I have lacked stability in my recent life and I do not cope very well with change. It feels like I am never going to be able to find the stability that I crave.

3 comments:

  1. We can love you, but only One can give us stability.

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  2. That was more an exercise in writing.

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  3. Really interesting to hear your thoughts Beth. I think there is something within us that often asks these questions and is searching for meaning. It’s great to share a common faith with you.

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