She was just a small girl and everyone thought she was cute because
she looked young for her age. To get home from school she would walk
through the nearby high school with her family. This brought her into
contact with people who she didn't know very well and who also
thought she was cute. There was one older girl in particular that
thought she was very cute and wanted to spend time with her. Her
mother was always asked if she could be picked up and cuddled, but
the little girl was never asked if this was ok with her. Sometimes
the little girl would tell the older girl that she didn't like her
which make the older girl tell the little girls mother, who then told
the little girl off. As the little girl got older she thought about
this situation some more, and realised that the reason that it had
made her so uncomfortable was that she was not asked and it had made
her feel like she had no control over what was happenining to her.
Also because she was so small when she was picked up the ground was a
long way from her feet and she didn't like that feeling because it
made her feel more like she had no control. She had wanted to tell
them how she felt at the time but had been too scared to say and by
telling the older girl that she didn't like her was trying to let
them know how that she felt she didn't have control. Sometimes as an
adult she still feels like everyone else is making decisions for her
and that she still has now control over her life.
Writing gibberish
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Thursday 10 January 2019
Tuesday 20 November 2018
"You and your folder are finally reunited".
I went to an interview a little while ago and caught the train back. Having gotten off the train and arriving back at my place I received a phone call telling me that my folder had been handed in at what I thought was Merrylands station. The lady said that the station was closing soon so I would not be able to get the folder that day, but to come the next day, but to call first to make sure there would be someone there.
So the next day I went to Merrylands station, calling the number that had called me the day before as I was leaving home. When I arrived at Merrylands there was no one in the office so i called the number that was there. This time a guy a answered and said that he was busy at the moment but he would come when he was finished. I waited 40 mins for him to be finished emptying the bins on the other platform. Then he came and talked to me and I explained that I had come to collect my folder. he found a folder in the office and it was not my folder. So he looked around for my folder. Which he could not fine. He then looked at the lost property site and found it that it was at Marayong not Merrylands.
So I caught the next train to Marayong. While I was still waiting for the train the Lady from Marayong rang me again and said it is an hour since you called me and you have not yet arrived. I explained about the misunderstanding and that I was now on my way to Marayong from Merrylands.
When I finally arrived in Marayong the lady met me and said, "You and your folder are finally reunited".
So the next day I went to Merrylands station, calling the number that had called me the day before as I was leaving home. When I arrived at Merrylands there was no one in the office so i called the number that was there. This time a guy a answered and said that he was busy at the moment but he would come when he was finished. I waited 40 mins for him to be finished emptying the bins on the other platform. Then he came and talked to me and I explained that I had come to collect my folder. he found a folder in the office and it was not my folder. So he looked around for my folder. Which he could not fine. He then looked at the lost property site and found it that it was at Marayong not Merrylands.
So I caught the next train to Marayong. While I was still waiting for the train the Lady from Marayong rang me again and said it is an hour since you called me and you have not yet arrived. I explained about the misunderstanding and that I was now on my way to Marayong from Merrylands.
When I finally arrived in Marayong the lady met me and said, "You and your folder are finally reunited".
Thursday 10 May 2018
The Phone Saga.
So in early March I was waiting to cross the road, so I could get to
work. I took my phone out to put it on silent and … I dropped it.
It landed on its corner and the screen cracked diagonally from that
corner to the edge of the screen and then a delta of smaller cracks
appeared fanning out over the bottom half of the phone. It was usable
after that but it was difficult to use it.I had already thought about
getting a new time cause it was no longer holding the charge very
well and was becoming unresponsive from time to time. When I got home
that night I decided that I would order a secondhand one online from
where I got the one I dropped. So I ordered one online and because I
was working when it arrived I asked my big bro to take the card to
the post office for me and leave it in my letter box for me. So I got
the phone and it worked pretty well however I thought I was being too
hard sometimes on the power button cause it kept turning on the
camera. I put up with it for a couple of weeks and then it started
to boot load, basically meaning it was unusable. Cause it wouldn't
actually turn on. I went to the local branch of where I got my phone
and took it back letting them know it was not working. They tested it
and told me that the power button was broken and was therefore not
working, they refunded me the money and I had to check my email to
get the voucher to sell me another new phone, as the one I was
returning was bought online that was the way they were going to
refund the money. I then had to pay a little more to buy the new one
as it was a little more expensive. But it was pretty easy to do all
that and I have now got a phone that works and is still working now.
Monday 1 January 2018
Why am I here?
I
have been wondering lately what my purpose in life is? I feel like up
to this point I have not really achieved much with my life.
I am
towards the middle of my thirties and I have never had a boyfriend, I
do not feel that this is the most important thing to have achieved
but I feel that quite a few other people judge me about this, because
to them this is the most important thing. I know that a lot of people
do not think like that but I get a lot of societal messages that the
most important thing is to find a life partner and to settle down
with them.
I
personally believe that this is not the most important thing and that
you can be perfectly happy in yourself without someone to partner
with. It is more important to have people in your life who are honest
with you and will support you know matter what. You also need to be
happy within yourself and not let others tell you how you should be
(I know that is a bit of a weird thing to say considering that I was
saying that I worry about what other people think but I am personally
working on not worrying so much about what other people think).
I
have also been wondering about about my purpose lately because once
again I find myself in a position where I a currently between jobs. I
new that this was happening but there was a possibility that my
previous job was going to be extended, but that did not eventuate. I
feel tht I have found my calling but due to the fact that I do not
seem to be able to find a job that lasts longer than a year it has
got me wondering again. I know that I am just letting my worries rule
my head and that I should just trust God but I am finding that
difficult because I have lacked stability in my recent life and I do
not cope very well with change. It feels like I am never going to be
able to find the stability that I crave.
Thursday 14 September 2017
Dreams.
I
opened my eyes and she was gone but that had been the millionth time I
had seen her in my dreams. She always looked the same. Short black bob,
the palest skin you have ever seen and a flowing red dress. This
description might make you think of Snow White but it was not her, for a
start the dress was wrong and this was definitely not her. I rolled
over and tried to get back to sleep but the thoughts of her haunting my
dreams would not let me straight away.
# # #
I
awoke startled and the hansome young man who had been haunting my
dreams for many moons was no longer there. Despite his close cropped
hair, which was blonde, and the strange attire he wore, I had never seen
anything like what he was wearing before in my life. But I wanted to
meet him and get to know him. I rolled over to return to the land of
slumber, which I did with some difficulty.
# # #
Ben
woke once again when his alarm went off and he couldn't shake off the
memories of his 'dream girl' He wasn't sure but on further thought it
seemed to him that the places where the girl appeared in his dreams
seemed to be rather old fashioned. He wished he could meet her but
thought that would be impossible as she was probably not real or
definitely not from his time. He had a shower and dressed for work and
ran out the door grabbing an apple as he went.
# # #
Jenna
woke slowly and watched the sunlight fill the room, as she watched her
serving girl prepare water for her to wash her face. She got up and said
“You can help me to dress now” Jenna put on her red dress with the help
of her maid who pulled the stays tight. The serving woman then helped
her to fix her long hair up out of the way so it would not bother her
during the day. As she was dressing Jenna's mind started to wander and
as it did her thoughts turned to the young man in the strange attire.
Later
that day as Jenna was walking through the forest she came across a
small pond which she had never seen before. She walked around it as she
thought it was strange, but she could not think where it could have come
from. She felt that if she could only work out where it had come from
she could understand what it was doing there. She decided to continue
walking around it so that she could try and figure it out. As she
completed her third journey around the pond she tripped on something she
couldn't see and landed head first in the pond but instead of landing
she just kept falling. When she had finished falling and could sit up
she was in a strange place with strange materials all around her, and
strange carriages without horses pulling them. There were people all
around in strange clothes that she had never seen before, but the more
she thought about it the more she thought some of the clothes were
similar to what she had seen the man in her dreams wearing. As she
looked around she suddenly gasped.
Ben
heard a gasp and looked. He had to do a double take because he could
not believe his eyes. There was the girl of his dreams. He started
saying Ït's You, and at the same time she said it's you.
Wednesday 13 September 2017
Invasion of the hatchback.
Sitting
in Bible Study with the others praying as we are finishing off. I hear
voices coming from outside possibly a little raised but think nothing of
it. We finish off and Paula goes off to get the car so that those of us
who are leaving can go. Ellie, whose house we are at helps us get ready
to leave. Those of us who are going with Paula are Gwen who is 91 years
old, my mother Kathleen, my sister Rebekah and myself.
Paula
had the car ready to go, it was a 3 door hatchback, so we put the front
passenger seat forward and mum clambered into the car, next in was
Rebekah and she stayed in the middle of the back, finally I got into the
back. Next the passenger seat was returned to the normal position and
Ellie helped Gwen get in. Paula got ready to drive off , but now there
were a couple of guys running around around in the street. So Paula
tried to lock the doors, she got hers locked but just missed out on
locking Gwens. The next thing you know one of the guys has the door open
and plonks himself on the floor in front of Gwen. My memory gets a bit
confused here, I remember that Paula was some of the time pounding him
on the back with her hands, Gwen was saying “Get off, your hurting my
legs”. The man was saying “You know I would never meant to hurt you”.
Meanwhile the other guy is running round and round the car, so the guy
in the car will not get out.
Ellie
goes inside to ring the police and my mum gets out her mobile phone and
rings as well. She is calmly explaining what is going on and suddenly, I
hear a more urgent note in her voice “He's got a baseball bat”. I
thought no he doesn't, but then I looked up and saw the guy running
around the car holding one (Rebekah later said that at the time she
thought 'this is Australia, we have cricket bats not baseball bats').
Pretty soon after this the police turned up and dealt with the two men. We were visibly shaken but all in one peace.
Wednesday 30 August 2017
The one that got away...
I had just placed my order at the counter in the coffee shop. Turned
to go and wait for my order, while avoiding the dangling hearts and
cupids, and there he was. I said “Hi” and he replied “Hello”
and looked away quickly. I was just gonna leave it at that but, he
was as hot as ever and although I new that we were dead and
buried, something made me change my mind. So I asked “How are you?”
and he said “I'm ok”. My order was up. So I grabbed it and asked
if he wanted to join me when he was ready he shrugged. I sat down at
a table and started to sip my mocha. I started day dreaming about
what would happen if we did get back together and how easy it would
be to get lost swimming in his beautiful blue eyes, but I
was brought back to reality by “I can't stay long I'm meeting
someone.” We started chatting about how life was going, me speaking
more than him. He kept looking around like he was not interested in
my company, as if he was interested in everyone else but me. Then
the door to the coffee shop opened and there was a woman there, she
looked around and spotted him, she walked towards us. As she
approached the table where we were sitting she said "And who is this?", looking as though I had just been dragged in by a cat. "Oh, just an old girl friend” he said. She said we have plans and
we don't want to be late. So he got up and they walked out of the
coffee shop without a backward glance. So he is still the one that
got away.
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